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[29 Apr 2004|11:50pm] |
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noting makes me more excited than thinking that in less than 48 hours starr and i will be together again, and not to mention married. the weekend is going to be insane, even though i don't think that many of the things we have planeed are going to happen. i think that we are not going to really leave my room the whole time. the past month has been so hard for me, i can't imagine what the month of may is going to bring. i really hope i can sell my motorcycles so i can have money to move. regardless of money i am moving down at the begining of june. this will be the best weekend ever no matter what happens, i am feeling so many things that are new to me, and it's fucking rad.
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| fighting off the boredom |
[27 Apr 2004|07:45pm] |
LAST PERSON WHO....
Slept in your bed: in the bed i have now, just me. it's pretty new. that changes in a few days though, starr is staying in it while i sleep on the floor.
Saw you cry: starr, she was the one who made me cry too, that bitch.
Made you cry:see above answer
Spent the night at your house: the dead outlaws spent the night on saturday.
You shared a drink with: starr which in turn got us kicked out of a bar.
You went to the movies with: the one and only starr fucking walker
You went to the mall with: starr again, there seems to be a pattern going on with this.
Yelled at you: the bartender at the choppin block on saturday, then she threw a drink at me and i thought it was a bottle breaking on my head.
You kissed: again, starr"shitcunt"walker
HAVE YOU EVER....
Said "I love you" and meant it? to my family and i'm pretty sure i've meant it to someone else but i don't really know
Gotten in a fight w/your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc.: who fights animals, that is weird stuff
Been to New York?: i have, it's too big.
Been to Florida?: i really like florida, if i ever fuck up real bad in life that's where i'm going to move. it's good for that i've heard
California?: i have, that is the home of our infamous five thousand dollar dinner. haha
Hawaii?: i wouldn't mind checking it out. good honey moon spot
Mexico?: i would love to check out some sketchy shit down there
China?: no, i'd rather go to japan though
Canada?: shit yeah, best lap dances ever, and i could drink when i was 18
Danced naked?: haha, yes i have
Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: i don't think so
Wish you were the opposite sex?: no way that would be the worst, i'm stoked on starrs answer to this though, even though if she were a dude us getting married would be weird
Had an imaginary friend?: i had enough real friends, well not real friends but real people to hang with.
RANDOM
Red or blue?: both are cool with me
Spring or fall?: i'm into the spring up here, i like when stuff sort of comes to life, fall depresses me, it's like the begining of the end.
Last noise you heard?: my ankle cracking all crazy, my ankles are so slayed
Last time you went out of the state: last week. i went to rhode island to skate.
Things you like in a girl/guy?: i don't really have a set list of things. i like starr though, everything about her, that has never happened before to me, i always dislike one aspect or another
What book are you reading now?: filth
Worst feeling in the world: not being able to be with someone when they need me the most.
What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: right now it's that i only have to wait four more days
How many rings before you answer the phone?: if i want to answer it it's usually as soon as i hear it ring
Future daughter's name: i don't think that far into the future
Future son's name: not: william blaine campbell
If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be?: chiller
Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous?: ambidextrous
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys?: i do, i can't type any other way
What's under your bed?: the wood floors
Current Age: old
Siblings: emily elisabeth campbell
Location: the rippinest town boston ma
THE EXTRA STUFF...
Do you do drugs?: just alcohol
Do you drink?: everyday
Who is your best friend?: my fiance starr
What clothes do you sleep in?: fruit of the loom underwear
Where do you want to get married?: where will i be married is the proper question. kaiju is the answer
If you could change anything about yourself what would that be?: i think i'm fine with everything about me, i'm fucking rad
Who do you really hate?: starr for living so far away from me
Favorite number: 11
Been In Love?: i'm not sure
What Type Automobile Do You Drive: i have a cadillac but it doesn't move
Are You Timely Or Always Late: late for almost everything
Do You Have A Job: yeah, and the company is really screwing me
Do You Like Being Around People: i sit in my room all night, that should answer that
Are you for world peace: world peace can't be done, it just can't exist,
Are you a health freak: hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
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| starr got robbed |
[25 Apr 2004|06:14pm] |
Birth date: 1\3\83
Birthplace: hyannis ma
Current Location: boston ma
Eye Color: blue
Hair Color: brown, it used to be really blond though
Height: six feet
Righty or Lefty: lefty
Sign: capricorn
LAYER TWO: On The Inside
Your heritage: american
Shoes you wore today: nike air zoom fc, red white and blue
Your weakness: starr walker
Your fears: i'm scared of having to wait a month to live with starr, that is too long
Your perfect pizza: broccoli and garlic
Goal you'd like to achieve: i never set goals, because i end up getting let down in the end.
LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your most overused phrase on AIM: it's ok
Your thoughts first waking up: i wish starr was next to me
Your best physical feature: my left leg
Your bedtime: lately i don't get to sleep until about 4 or 5 in the morning. it's rad
Your most missed memory: i don't miss memories i miss the actual thing i was doing in my memories
LAYER FOUR: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: coke
McDonald's or Burger King: if i have to choose between those two, i say bk
Single or group dates: i usually only date one person at a time, going on a date with more than one girl at a time might be weird
Adidas or Nike: Nike but i'm going to buy some adidas this week
Lipton Iced Tea or Nestea: arizona iced tea
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: black coffee
LAYER FIVE: Do You?
Smoke: i have never smoked a cigarette
Cuss: my vocabulary consists of little more than cuss words
Sing: not very well but i do
Take a shower everyday: i try, but i'm lazy
Have a crush(es): i wouldn't call it a crush, it's much more than that. we are going to be married in 6 days
Think you've been in love: i don't know what love really feels like, but i have thought i've been in love
Like(d) high school: i didn't go too often but it wasn't bad
Want to get married: considering i am getting married in six days i would say the answer is yes
Believe in yourself: i believe that i am a douchebag
Get motion sickness: never
Think you're attractive: i'm beautiful
Think you're a health freak: i am the exact opposite
Get along with your parents?: yeah
Like thunderstorms: we never have them
Play an instrument: yeah
LAYER SIX: In the past few months have you...
Drank alcohol: everyday
Smoked: i don't remember
Done a drug: alcohol is a drug so yes
Made Out: ill make out session that almost made me miss my train
Gone on a date: no, but soon enough i will be going on a date, i already have it all planned. super romantic.
Gone to the mall?: yup
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: i'm not stoked on oreos really
Eaten sushi: last time i had sushi was on the way to the ludacris show like two months ago
Been on stage: i stage dove last night, which resulted in me being bloody
Been dumped: in the past few months no, i hadn't had a girl friend in about 9 months until the other day
Gone skating: ice skating? yes i played hockey a few times this winter
Gone skinny dipping: it's too cold for that jazz
Dyed your hair: naw
Stolen anything: i pussed out on stealing some 3d glasses at kings dominion
Lied: to my boss
LAYER SEVEN: Ever...
Played a game that required removal of clothing: nope
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: last night
Been called a tease: never
Gotten beaten up: yeah
Shoplifted: a few times
LAYER EIGHT: Getting Older
Age you hope to be married: 21
Numbers and Names of Children: that is not really up to me, ask starr that one
Describe your dream wedding: kaiju big battle with dino kong jr doing the service
How do you want to die: i don't really care
What do you want to be when you grow up: awesome
What country would you most like to visit: i would like to go everywhere, maybe for my honey moon we can check out some sweet places
LAYER NINE: In a girl/guy?
Best eye color? blue
Best hair color?: boring brown
Short or long hair: short
Height: 5'''2'
Best first date location: it's a secret
LAYER TEN: In The Numbers...
Number of people I could trust with my life: one maybe two
Number of CDs that I own: maybe 300 i dont know, most of them are not even at my house
Number of piercings: 0
Number of tattoos: one bad one, but we won't mention that
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: a few, maybe 5
Number of scars on my body: too many to count, it's a good thing chicks dig dudes with scars
Number of things in my past that I regret: not moving to richmond sooner
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| fuck tonight |
[25 Apr 2004|01:40am] |
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that is all i really have to say about the events of tonight. it started out nice, talking to starr as usual but when we went out every thing went down hill from there. i ended up getting cut up by some glass while dancing to my friends band and then i'm pretty sure i got a bottle broken on my head but i'm not too sure. i really think i need to turn it down a few notches when i go out because i always end up getting in fights of fucking hurt. which is a great transition to the next part of the story. i decided to walk home because i was sick of waiting around, and about five minutes into my walk i end up getting into a fight with three stupid frat dudes. i think i'm totally going to have a black eye when i wake up tomorrow but those dudes should be embarrassed that they didn't beat the ass of one kid. So when i finally got home from my hour long walk i realized that i didn't have my fucking keys and my door was locked so i had to climb up the pole to get onto my back porch which is sketch when sober let alone drunk as fuck. i finally ended up getting in through my window after about twenty minutes of trying to pry it open. so needless to say i really could use a hug from the girl i love right about now. if only we weren't so far apart i know this stupid shit wouldn't happen to us.
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| i am hated for loving. |
[23 Apr 2004|10:50pm] |
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it seems that i don't really do anything anymore. well i do, just not with any real human contact. My roommates are totally not stoked on me moving they think it is one of the worst ideas. one of them says he tried moving away to be with a girl twice and that both times things did not work out at all. i have no worries about things working out, i am more worried about having to wait to move. i can't do it for much longer, this is my first experience with a long distance relationship and it is so hard. all i do now is work and talk to starr whether it be online or on the phone, we usually talk for at least a few hours a day. not to mention the epic text message sessions we have. in a week we will be together at last, it will be the best thing ever even if it is for only 5 days. once she leaves i will be back into my crappy depressed not leaving my room phase again for about another month. at the end of that month i am moving down to va. i need to start selling all my crap that i don't need, i am in dire need of money so everything must go, so if anyone has any requests for stuff i might have for sale let me know, i have a ton of weird music and a car that need to be sold. not to mention all the clothing that i don't want anymore. this is a boring post but i figure i need to update. I feel that if i don't move to be with starr i will be missing the best opportunity of my life. she also says she has a bunch of fun stuff planned for me so i can't miss out on that.
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| what's that sound? i think it's wedding bells |
[18 Apr 2004|09:16pm] |
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so last night(into early this morning), i had one of the greatest things i have yet to experience happen to me. The eight hour conversation i had with starr made me feel so much better about all these feelings i've been having for the last few weeks. Up until last night i was unsure about the feelings being mutual and that really had me feeling rather strange, but now i feel much better. i hate not knowing what's going on, but i'm not the type of person to come out and say something about my feelings, so i know why i didn't come up earlier. Now i am the happiest i have ever been, i get the best feeling ever when i think about the things that are going to happen in 13 days from now. i am trying very hard to not think about what's going to happen when i have to bring her to the airport on the 5th. i thought it was hard when i left before, but now it's a totally different ball game. A month between visits isn't going to cut it for me, hopefully things work out soon and starr will be able to move up here before this distance thing really gets to me( as if it hasn't already, i'm freaking out). So in 13 days some serious shit is going to go down, but i know i don't need to list the events because starr is the only one who is going to see this anyway.
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| stolen from starr |
[15 Apr 2004|10:58pm] |
1. Kissed your cousin: i don't think i ever have done that
2. Ran away: never have, but i'm about to
3. Pictured your crush naked: actually i haven't, i don't know why, i guess the awesomeness matters more than the rest of the stuff
4. skipped school: i went to half the days in my senior year, and still graduated with a 3.2 gpa
5. Broken someone's heart: i'm not sure, but i don't plan to.
6. Been in love: at the time i thought i was, but thinking back, i realize i don't know what love is.
7. Cried when someone died? never, death doesn't have a profound effect on me.
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: i can have anyone i want
9. Broken a bone: haha, quite a few
10. Done something embarrasing: i'm really good at that, like a fucking pro
11. Done a drug: too many and i'm not proud of it.
12. Cried in school: maybe when i was young
WHICH IS BETTER
13. Coke or Pepsi: PBR
14. Sprite or 7UP: PBR
15. Girls or Guys: starr
16. Flowers or Candy: candy
17. Scruffy or Clean shaven: well maintained at least
18. Blondes or Brunettes: i bet the redheaded people doing this survey are bummed that the are not an option
19. Bitchy or Slutty: bitchy
20. Tall or Short: short but not too short
21. Pants or Shorts: i hate when girls wear shorts, but i like them on myself
22. Night or Day: they are both good for different reasons
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
23. What do you notice first: it's usually not just one thing that i notice
24. Last person you slow danced with: it's been so long i don't even remember, but i plan to slow dance with a certain person in a couple weeks
25. Worst Question To Ask: i don't know, that is a tough one
THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: this morning
27. Stepped outside: about an hour ago
28. Had Sex: i'm not the type of dude who talks about that kind of stuff with just anybody
RANDOM
29. Romantic memory: groping on the zombie coaster from hell
30. Your Good Luck Charm: i don't have a charm but i have some seriously weird things i do while skating that are sort of like good luck charms, i can't mention them though or you will think i'm totally nuts
31. Person You Hate Most? myself
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: meeting starr
33. On your desk: emac, and an ipod
34. Picture on your desktop: a black and white shot of moz hanging out
35. Color: pink and brown
36. Movie: video days
37. Artist: mark gonzales
38. Cars: 95 talon tsi 468whp 11.8@125 but i just sold it
39. Ice Cream: i like ice cream alot but i never really eat it
40. Season: spring
41. Breakfast Food: all of them
WHO
42. Makes you laugh the most: starr and richard pryor
43. Makes you smile: the only person that can make me smile anymore is starr.
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: see above
45. Has A Crush On You: i wish someone did
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: i do, but i can't name any names, i hope it doesn't make them feel weird to know about it though
47. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?: dudes easily
48. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: funny feeling, like a boner? i won't answer that
DO YOU EVER
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: i bring my phone with me when i am waiting for a call
50. Save MSN conversations: what is msn
51. Save E-mails: i don't delete emails from my friends
52. Forward secret E-mails: who gets secret emails anyway
53. Wish you were someone else: no, but i wish i was with someone else
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: no way
55. Wear perfume: cologne not perfume, why do they call it something different when it's for dudes, it's the same shit
56. Kiss: kiss what?
57. Cuddle?: it's my favorite thing in the world
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: oh god, the other night i was fully having the raddest aim conversation until 3 am, that was just about 8 hours
HAVE YOU EVER:
59. Fallen for your best friend?: i just got my first best friend
60. made out with JUST a friend?: i don't think so
61. Kissed two people in the same day?: no
62. Had sex with two different people in the same day?: not even in the same year let alone day
63. Been rejected: of course
64. Been in love?: at the time i thought i was
65. Been in lust?: yeah
66. Used someone?: i'm not like that
67. Been used?: no
68. Cheated on someone?: i am too nice
69. Been cheated on?: yes i have
70. Been kissed?: maybe
71. Done something you regret?: never
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched?: starr
73. You talked to?: starr
74. You hugged?: starr
75. you instant messaged?: melanie
76. You kissed?: the raddest girl on the planet
77. You yelled at?: starr
78. You thought about?: starr
79. Who text messaged you?: starr
80. Who broke your heart?: amtrak train line for taking me back to boston and away from the only thing that makes me happy
81. Who told you they loved you?: starr walker
DO YOU...
82. Color your hair?: years ago i did
83. Have tattoos?: sort of
84. Have piercings?: no
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no, i would be very happy to have one though
86. Own a webcam?: i have a sony dsc p71 digital camera
87. Own a thong?: no way they are way gross on dudes and girls
88. Ever get off the damn computer?: i have a problem, it's an addiction
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: ja spreche ich deutsch.
90. Habla espanol?: si, yo hablo espanol
91. Quack?: no but starr squeeks in her sleep, it's bizarre
HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
92. Stolen anything?: i don't even want to get into that.
93. Smoke?: i have never smoked a cigarrette in my life
94. Schizophrenic?: totally
95. Obsessive?:only while skateboarding
96. Compulsive?: only while skateboarding
97. Obsessive compulsive?: i think you can but it together yourself
98. Panic?:not really
99. Anxious?: yup
100. Depressed?: i would say bummed out, not depressed. but in a couple weeks i will be stoked as hell
Body:
Name: william blaine campbell 3
Do you like it?: i wouldn't change it
Nicknames: hippy, fag, shitjammer, cockmonger, mansloth, david lee sloth there are quite a few
Screen names: xmikethebumx
Birthday: jan, 7 1983
Sign: capricorn
Location: boston unfortunatly
Status: awesome, broke, and bummed
Virgin?: would it make a difference if i was or not
Natural hair color: brown
Current hair color: brown
Eye color: blue
Shoe size:13
Bra size: 36 b
[ family ]
Parents: bill and beth
Siblings: emily
Live with: dave tony ryan
Favorite relative: dad
[ favorites ]
Number: 11
Color: camo, pink and brown
Day: all of them
Month: october, i'm way stoked on halloween
Song: right now i'm listening to "necropolis" by ringworm,
Movie: lost in translation
Food: i love food
Band: i don't have a favorite, i have favorites, i have been listening to so much moz lately
Sport: hockey
Class: ecology
Teacher: mrs, mayhew, pre calculus and calculus 11th and 12th grade, she was rad, the only teacher i would hang with outside of school, she put up with so much of my shit, and served me drinks at the bar she worked at in the summer.
Drink: coffee and pbr
Veggie: tomatoes are gnarly but i love the rest, especially brocolli and eggplant
TV Show: adult swim and sopranos
Radio Station: i hate the radio
Store: levi's store
Word: AWESOME
Animal: dogs
Flower: none
State: VIRGINIA
[ this or that ]
Me/You: starr
Coke/pepsi: coke
Day/night: day, both
Aol/aim: AIM
Cd/cassette: ipod
Dvd/vhs: dvd, i hate rewinding
Jeans/khakis: jeans
Car/truck: motorcycle
Tall/short: short
Lunch/dinner: BREAKFAST
NSYNC/BSB: jt
Gap/Old Navy: Gap
Lipstick/Lipgloss: neither
Silver/Gold: platinum
[ love and relationships ]
Do you have a bf/gf?: no
How long have you liked him/her?: i don't have one
Why do you like this person?: what person
If you're single... why are you single?: there is nobody cool in boston
If you're not single... give details...: i am single
How long was your longest relationship?: a year and a half
How long was your shortest relationship?: ten minutes
Who was your first love?: a girl
What do you miss about them?: not much
[ the past ]
What is the one thing you would change about your past?: everything happens for a reason
Last thing you heard?: starr making weird noises on the phone
Last thing you saw: sex positions cd case
Last thing you said: don't do it
Who is the last person you saw?: larry
Who is the last person you kissed?: somebody awesome
Who is the last person you hugged?: starr
Who is the last person you fought with?: shawn about a month ago
Who is the last person you were on the phone with?: i'm on the phone with starr
What is the last TV show you saw?: red sox
What is the last song you heard?: hold onto your friends- morrissey
[ the present ]
What are you wearing?: levi's heshers, a hellacopters shirt and new balance shoes
What are you doing?: talking about not wearing underwear with starr
Who are you talking to?: duh
What song are you listening to?: hold on to your friends by moz
[ future ]
What day is it tomorrow?: friday
What are you going to do after this?: maybe sleeping
Who are you going to talk to?: starr
How old will you be when you graduate? from college? i don't know
What is one of your dreams?: move in with starr
Where will you be in 25 years?: living with starr and fucking shit up
[ have you ever ]
Drank?: at least one beer a day
Smoked?: not cigarettes
Had sex?: not until im married
Stolen?: too much
Done anything illegal?: constantly
Wanted to die?: yeah
Hit someone?: a few times
[ other ]
Do you write in cursive or print?: print
Are you a lefty or a righty?: lefty
What is your sexual preference?: gay
What piercings do you have?: none
Any tattoos?: yeah
Do you drive?: sometimes
Do you have glasses or braces?: i had braces in 8th grade
Did you like this survey?: it's long as hell
What do you most like about your body?: my hot ass
How many fillings do you have?: a few
Do you think you're good looking?: very good looking
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: all the time
Do you look like any celebrities?: bruce lee
[ fashion ]
Do you wear a watch?: when i dress
How many coats and jackets do you own?: 5 total
Favorite pants/skirt color? khaki
most expensive item of clothing?: camo hoodie 200 dollars
Most treasured?: van halen hi top vans
What kind of shoes do you wear?: all kinds
LAST...
time you had sex: phone sex with starr about 10minutes ago
time you got kissed: a couple weeks ago
thing you ate: eggplant
person you saw (other than family)?: larry
person you called: starr
person that called you: starr
song you listened to: hold on to your friends
song you sang: panama-van halen
movie you watched: KILLBILL
CURRENT...
sound: starr
taste: air
nail color: none
mood: happy/bummed at the same time
favorite band: lots of stuff
smell: dirty room
sight: same
hate: distance
want: epic bro'down and pbr session, and to take starr on in the pizza shredding contest
THIS OR THAT...
yellow or orange: orange, like my new nikes
cell phone or house phone: cellphone
beach or mountains: mountains
sun or snow: both
is being bald- ugly or beautiful: neither, it just is
tattoo or piercing: tattoos
die or live forever: die, living forever would get boring quick
Go to school naked or swim with the sharks: swim with sharks
cherry or watermelon: watermelon
bubble gum or minty gum: mint makes me sick
m&ms or skittles: skittles i love them
cotton candy or funnel cake: funnel cake
color or black and white flicks: black and white
country or rap: both
RANDOM...
*if you were stranded on a desert island and you could only bring 3 things with you, what would you bring (you already have food, water, and stuff to clean yourself with): i only need one thing, starr walker
*if you could fly or become invisible for a day, which would you choose: fly
*would you rather freeze to death or drown: freeze
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| it's a funny feeling |
[12 Apr 2004|11:17pm] |
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it's weird how some things(or people) can just make such a big impact on your day or life. Today i got home from work to see a small box waiting for me on the table, and right then before i even opened it i was super stoked. just seeing it there was enough to make my day, then when i opened it i was in awe at how rad the young lady that sent it to me is. I can't even really beging to explain the way it made me feel without sounding a little weird but it did bring a tear to my eye looking at it. if only there was a way to really show the way it made me feel. if we weren't so far away starr would be getting a serious hug right now i'll tell you that much. These next three weeks are going to go by so slow that the time we will have together at the end of them will seem like it was only a minute and that really bums me out. there needs to be an easier way to do this.
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| lazy days |
[11 Apr 2004|06:39pm] |
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well i still don't feel right after friday night, this is the first time i've had a hangover go on for more than 24 hours. not rad. i did get to do some crucial street skating on saturday and got to see a few people i haven't seen in a while so that was rad. After the skate session i just went home and sat around, it was robins birthday party but i knew it was a bad idea to go so i just chilled out at home and watched a ton of tv and spent some serious time on the nerd. I planned on going to bed early but i ended up staying up until like 5 have a text message session with starr. today i woke up at about 8 and didn't do shit until about noon when i went into the basement and did laundry. that is the farthest i moved all day, epic. i thought about going skating but i didnt want to risk just cruising around alone so i didn't go. starr called me and we totally talked for like an hour and half, when i got off my arm fucking killed from holding the phone for so long. i really enjoy not doing anything all day, tonight i might watch a movie, i'm feeling that.
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